So this is going to be a totally amazing post. know why? know why?! cause this is gonna be like....two posts....fused with my magic post-fusing powers, to make one, amazing, incredible, probably boring, dry, not-worth-my-valuable-time post!! Ta-Da! so sit back, get comfy, pull your coffee close and hang on for the ride of your life.
So there I was. as you may remember from my last post, I was eager to see the new Indiana Jones movie. it had been a long day at work, and I was tired and slightly cranky, but my kid brother Josh knows the only known cure to kill any ailment his older sister might attain. "Hey, Jo, wanna go to a movie?"
Blast. the kid was good. he had mastered the skill to a fine art. and even though I knew he was playing me like a fiddle, the magic cure still worked. my step became light and my face, previously void of emotion, was suddenly grinning from ear to ear. nobody can do that like Josh.
Anyways, no sooner had I changed out of my horrid Hy Vee uniform and into something much much more comfortable, then Josh and I were careening down the street in my lovely little car, me singing along to Jim Croce and Josh scrambling to find a different CD. on the short drive to the theater, Josh and I reminisced about all the previous Indiana Jones movies, hyping ourselves for a very promising evening indeed.
Only Fate knew how wrong I was. For all the eight(?) years I've lived here in good old Nebraska, (and what a grand eight years it's been), Douglas Theaters has always been there to provide a bit of fun on weekends (and sometimes not weekends, when I'm feeling especially nerdy) and rip my boredom to shreds at my say-so. but now...there was a new foe on the horizon. a new obstacle to cross. a new hurdle to jump. due to circumstances far, far beyond my arm of influence, Douglas Theaters has sold out to, and transformed into something hardly resembling the good old theater I've grown to love--Marcus Theaters. *duh duh Duhhhhhh*
So, we show up to the theater, intent on movie magic fun. I had already heard from my homies on the street (a.k.a. the old people who come into the grocery store to gossip) that Douglas had sold out to Marcus, so I was already bracing myself for what I would find when I walked through the beloved doors of Edgewood Theater. apparently, though, I didn't brace myself good enough, because as I opened the door of the theater I was quickly washed away in a riptide rush of disappointments.
The first thing that always used to greet me when I went to a movie was the young, semi-conscious college student who took your money and gave you your ticket without blinking or losing the glazed-eye look. they always amused me; put me in a good mood for my movie. sometimes even cut me a deal. but NOW they've got...what? two stuffy old men wearing...tuxedos? what what what??? it was appalling, severely irritating, and slightly hysterical. the tuxedos, or black suites...whatever...make the poor guys look like a mix between a butler and a secret service agent. I scoffed. posers.
Anyways. The stuffy men now name the price (which has skyrocketed), snatch the money, give you your change (if you're lucky) and your ticket. NEXT! no deals here, I'm afraid. oh, and the Douglas Real Deal Card, which has granted me many a free movie over the years and years that I've owned it, is now void. that's right. gone. capooch. capeesh. whatever. I guess Marcus is too good for real deals. the stuffy old man snatched my card, old, bent and faded from years of use and abuse, and threw it in the trash. goodbye, my friend.
Next, Josh and I headed to the snack bar. we weren't really hungry, only thirsty. good thing, too. before, yes, it's true, popcorn was overpriced. very overpriced. I've said goodbye to many Washingtons and Lincolns and Jacksons over the years, as a result of overpriced theater popcorn. but this...this, I felt, was dangerously close to illegal. because popcorn is now in buckets instead of bags (ooh, special), Marcus feels that they need to charge a bit extra. a LOT extra. the smallest size is now the cost of what a large size used to be. good thing I usually don't get popcorn.
"Can I get a large popcorn and a drink, please?"
"Sure. do you want to mortgage your house or sell your soul?"
Moving on with our drinks, Josh and I made our way to our seats. after the lights dimmed, the intro played and, after everything that I had seen changed that evening, I wasn't even surprised that they got rid of the little flying ticket guy and switched to an intro that was supposed to be snazzier, but in all reality was just as lame and boring. now, I never really cared for the little ticket man who flew around telling me to be quiet. but, as I watched the new "Marcus Theater" intro...I couldn't help but feel a little sad. poor Ticket Man. I wondered what he was going to do now.
Anyways, the evening's only redeeming factor was that the movie was very good and I had Josh with me. I don't know why everyone was so upset about the new Indiana Jones movie. I thought it was exceptional. although Harrison Ford was undoubtedly way hotter back in the day of Raiders of the Lost Arc. but he's still good old Indiana.
So that's Marcus Theaters in my biased nutshell. in one fell swoop, Marcus has managed to injure and/or maim all the fun of the movie-going experience. curse you, Marcus. but even though going to the movies is now a little less enjoyable and all but pushes you to the brink of bankruptcy, I suppose it's my civic duty to continue the tradition. after all, what would the world think if all the hard-core movie people stopped going just because of some extra expenses or some old men in tuxedos? do we even want to know the havoc and carnage it would wreak?
Anyways, that was last week. this next part was just tonight. post, prepare to fuse!!
So I was working all afternoon, and in my job, one of the good things about it is that I get to hear all the juicy gossip of the world before anybody else. so I knew pretty early that a massive storm front was going to hit town sometime tonight. how exciting!
After work, I sat in my car and looked in all directions. I was tempted...so very tempted...to go driving toward the fast approaching thunderhead. I know a bad decision when I think of one...but simply knowing that it's a bad idea is hardly ever enough to stop me from entertaining it. I knew driving away from home and into the storm was a bad idea. a very bad idea. I could name all the reasons why I knew, but most of them are painfully obvious, so I won't bore you. but the biggest reason--I'm not sure if it was the only one (the rest seemed trivial)--was that I wanted to get into some more comfortable clothing. if I had been in comfy clothes right then...I might have turned my car toward the storm with a whoop and sped off. who knows.
Anyways, I did go home (like a good little girl) and waited for the storm to hit. I had almost convinced myself that the entire thing would go north of us and we wouldn't get a blessed raindrop, when the wind began. it wasn't too impressive at first, but when the windows started to rattle, I knew it was going to get good.
Our house is so funny to watch during big storms. Mom rushes around making popcorn and cuddling in blankets and watching the weather channel, the little girls sit on the couch and cry, begging us to rush to the basement with our most prized possessions, Dad alternates between checking the radar loop on the computer, watching the weather channel with Mom, and shouting instructions of what to do in case of tornadoes over all the commotion. Jim sits there wanting the noise and chaos to stop, I sit there waiting for my chance to escape outside.
My parents are kind of...finicky about us being outside during a storm. they live by the rule that if something can go wrong, it will. I live by the rule that if something can go wrong, that's where the party's at. eventually, there was a breech of surveillance on the front door and I was able to slip out into the blowing wind and rain.
It was amazing. the hurricane-like winds were making the trees bend over at odd angles, and an interesting assortment of odds and ends were blowing down the street like a junk parade. I was tempted...so very tempted...to run out into the middle of the street and see if I could stand upright against the wind or get blown over. I was ready. so ready. nothing sounded more fun to me right then. but I knew the minute I took a step off the porch my parents would come running out of the house and drag me back inside like some sort of crazy prison escapee. unfortunately, my parents did an excellent job raising me, instilling inside me a healthy fear of consequences. I knew that running into the street was a very bad idea. I know that if my parents had not been at home, or if I had been some place other than home, I would have tried it. probably would've gotten pummeled by some negligent neighbor's garbage can...but I know I would've tried all the same. blast. woulda been so fun.
Anyways, eventually, when roll-call was taken and I was found absent without leave, a search party was formulated and I was found and forcibly brought inside to stand trial, even though I had obediently remained on the front porch.
Sadly, we did miss most of the storm. although, now that I think about it, it's probably for the best. spending my evening in the basement with two sobbing sisters (they would be sobbing, too, if we'd had to go to the basement, believe me) and utter chaos besides is NOT my idea of a good time. so yeah. save the good storms when I'm here alone or something. yeah, good idea.
So, I'm sorry this post is so long, but really it's two posts FUSED into one! Ta-Da! :D
Friday, May 30, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Class, Caffeine and Indiana Jones
So I've started school again. it's definitely good to be back into it. granted, it's only one class, for now. later on, the number of classes I take, as well as number of notebooks I own, pencils to keep sharp, classroom numbers to remember, amount of gas I spend and stress I have will skyrocket. other things, such as the bank account, free time and general happiness will not be so fortunate.
So, my class is three nights a week from 5:30 to 9:30. how I managed to sucker myself into a night class, I'll never know. I can stay awake in front of my laptop in my bedroom until six in the morning, if I have a mind to do so. but somehow, it's different in a classroom where a lady is reading monotone from a textbook about laws and rules and whatnot. but so far I've done pretty well for myself. in fact, I've managed to stay awake about 80% of the time! rock on.
And how I managed to find myself sitting in the front row of the classroom, I'll never know. actually, I do know. first day of class, I showed up early. but not early enough, I guess, cause all the other seats were already taken, dagnabbit. you're probably wondering what's so horrible about the front row. a lot of things, kid, a lot of things. like if the teacher asks a question, she'll say something like, "Let's start with........YOU!" and jab her finger in the face of the person in the front row. people who sit farther back have more time to think of a good answer. also, when I'm falling asleep, because I'm sitting in the front row I have to restrain myself from slapping myself in the face.
So last night we watched this movie...where this lady, this "nurse" was talking and "educating" us about the tasks we would preform. this is an actual quote from that movie. "Sometimes, in this job, we are in contact with tiny microorganisms sometimes referred to as...germs!" I suppressed a groan from escaping my lips, or nearly did. Kelsey (my brother's girlfriend who is taking the class with me) gave me a half-glance, so I knew I had not fully succeeded. but it's okay, cause I knew she felt the same way. the movie continued. "And sometimes, if we're not careful, we can move these microorganisms from one place to another, sometimes called...spreading." I thought for sure that, by now, my brain was nothing more than a pile of useless pulp and any moment now it might oozing out my ears. this was too much. I couldn't take it. Someone kill me.
After the movie was (mercifully) over, my teacher declared a much needed break. I got up, stretched my legs and went in search of some caffeine. after a long search up some pretty scary stairs, I found my heart's desire in a very large, dimly lit room. it was very much like the Indiana Jones movies where he finds the thing he's been looking for, and it's sitting on a pedestal with a light shining down on it from a convenient hole in the cave roof or something. it was like that. by the way, does anybody else want to see that movie??? I want to see that movie. anyways, where was I? oh yeah.
So I trekked back down the scary stairs, clutching my cold, wet, carbonated (and CAFFEINATED!) drink and reentered the classroom. I gazed at my prize that I had paid a whole $1.25 for. Caffeine, do your thing. I silently commanded. Glug glug glug.
It seemed to work. I didn't get tired again for the duration of the class. the clock ticked slowly toward 9:30, our scheduled ending time. but by 8:30, we were finished with all our material. I held my breath, hardly daring myself to hope....
"Well, we're done with all the material for tonight..." the teacher observed, flipping through the book with a frown. yes? yes? I thought impatiently. the teacher suddenly smiled, making me instantly uneasy. Oh no... "Do you want to play pictionary or hangman?" she asked. instantly, various students started calling out which one they wanted to play.
I chanced a look at Kelsey. she chanced a look at me. I think we were both wondering whether to laugh or cry. Are you as suicidal as I am right now? I asked her with my eyes. I thought about pretending to make a gun with my hand and put it to my head, if for nothing more than my own amusement. I figured it would probably get a laugh out of Kelsey. but we were in the front row, so I couldn't or everyone would know I was not enjoying myself.
So for the next 45 minutes, we played hangman and pictionary with medical terminology. ooooh. wow. I just realized how cynical this post is. I'm not sure why whenever I'm cynical I feel a need to explain myself. The class really is a good one. I'm sure I'll get a lot out of it in the long run. I'm sure. So sure. So totally sure...
So, my class is three nights a week from 5:30 to 9:30. how I managed to sucker myself into a night class, I'll never know. I can stay awake in front of my laptop in my bedroom until six in the morning, if I have a mind to do so. but somehow, it's different in a classroom where a lady is reading monotone from a textbook about laws and rules and whatnot. but so far I've done pretty well for myself. in fact, I've managed to stay awake about 80% of the time! rock on.
And how I managed to find myself sitting in the front row of the classroom, I'll never know. actually, I do know. first day of class, I showed up early. but not early enough, I guess, cause all the other seats were already taken, dagnabbit. you're probably wondering what's so horrible about the front row. a lot of things, kid, a lot of things. like if the teacher asks a question, she'll say something like, "Let's start with........YOU!" and jab her finger in the face of the person in the front row. people who sit farther back have more time to think of a good answer. also, when I'm falling asleep, because I'm sitting in the front row I have to restrain myself from slapping myself in the face.
So last night we watched this movie...where this lady, this "nurse" was talking and "educating" us about the tasks we would preform. this is an actual quote from that movie. "Sometimes, in this job, we are in contact with tiny microorganisms sometimes referred to as...germs!" I suppressed a groan from escaping my lips, or nearly did. Kelsey (my brother's girlfriend who is taking the class with me) gave me a half-glance, so I knew I had not fully succeeded. but it's okay, cause I knew she felt the same way. the movie continued. "And sometimes, if we're not careful, we can move these microorganisms from one place to another, sometimes called...spreading." I thought for sure that, by now, my brain was nothing more than a pile of useless pulp and any moment now it might oozing out my ears. this was too much. I couldn't take it. Someone kill me.
After the movie was (mercifully) over, my teacher declared a much needed break. I got up, stretched my legs and went in search of some caffeine. after a long search up some pretty scary stairs, I found my heart's desire in a very large, dimly lit room. it was very much like the Indiana Jones movies where he finds the thing he's been looking for, and it's sitting on a pedestal with a light shining down on it from a convenient hole in the cave roof or something. it was like that. by the way, does anybody else want to see that movie??? I want to see that movie. anyways, where was I? oh yeah.
So I trekked back down the scary stairs, clutching my cold, wet, carbonated (and CAFFEINATED!) drink and reentered the classroom. I gazed at my prize that I had paid a whole $1.25 for. Caffeine, do your thing. I silently commanded. Glug glug glug.
It seemed to work. I didn't get tired again for the duration of the class. the clock ticked slowly toward 9:30, our scheduled ending time. but by 8:30, we were finished with all our material. I held my breath, hardly daring myself to hope....
"Well, we're done with all the material for tonight..." the teacher observed, flipping through the book with a frown. yes? yes? I thought impatiently. the teacher suddenly smiled, making me instantly uneasy. Oh no... "Do you want to play pictionary or hangman?" she asked. instantly, various students started calling out which one they wanted to play.
I chanced a look at Kelsey. she chanced a look at me. I think we were both wondering whether to laugh or cry. Are you as suicidal as I am right now? I asked her with my eyes. I thought about pretending to make a gun with my hand and put it to my head, if for nothing more than my own amusement. I figured it would probably get a laugh out of Kelsey. but we were in the front row, so I couldn't or everyone would know I was not enjoying myself.
So for the next 45 minutes, we played hangman and pictionary with medical terminology. ooooh. wow. I just realized how cynical this post is. I'm not sure why whenever I'm cynical I feel a need to explain myself. The class really is a good one. I'm sure I'll get a lot out of it in the long run. I'm sure. So sure. So totally sure...
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Ah, Coffee In The Speckled Mug
So I like to stay up late when I can. most of you already know that. and most of you probably figure I stay up late doing things and writing and keeping myself busy and entertained. and while this sounds plausible and is a good idea, it's usually NOT what I'm doing on those frequent nights when I'm up until three in the morning. no, usually when I pull an all-nighter (nighter isn't a word...I just realized that) I'm doing...well...not really anything. I sit on my computer and watch funny youtube videos or stare glassy-eyed at my empty inbox waiting for a new message to magically appear, as if anybody besides me actually stayed up until 3 for no good reason, let alone writing emails. yes, sometimes I am writing a bit of poetry or some stupid fiction story, but I find I can only write when inspired, and usually when it's almost sunup and my eyes are twitching and my brain is short-circuiting and blinking "COFFEE OVERLOAD" in big red letters I'm not even feeling human, let alone inspired.
So usually what happens before one of these all-nighters (wait...spellcheck says "nighter" isn't a word but "nighters" is. weird. it also says "spellcheck" isn't a word. I smell a rat) is that I'll kind of wander around the house for a little while at around ten o'clock, wondering what to do and mostly waiting for people to go to bed so I can have the house to myself. Nikki's really the only person who notices, and she knows when I do that, that I'm about to pull an all nighter (okay, I'm adding that word to my dictionary. the red spellcheck line is starting to bug me). and I don't know why, but she has problems with me staying up late at night. I think it all goes back to when we lived in rooms side by side in Ceresco and I always stayed up late and got four hours of sleep per night, and she always went to bed early and got eight and we both felt the same in the morning. I'm pretty sure she's still bitter about that.
Anyways, she always tries to talk me out of staying up late, as if it effects her happiness or something if I go to bed when she does. she always tries to get me to, like, turn against myself or something by asking questions like, "Why do you always feel like you have to stay up late?" Answer: "Pfft." or "Why don't you just go to sleep now? you know you're tired." Answer: "Pfft." and sometimes she even tries to pull the "It's not healthy to stay up so late." card. Answer: "Pfft. pfft. pfft." the only people who say staying up late isn't healthy are the people who are angry that they can't stay up late themselves. people like Nikki. poor souls.
After "pffting" Nikki into silence I flounce to my bedroom. I never really answer her questions because...well...I really don't have answers to them. why don't I go to bed? I...don't know. it's not like I have anything especially important to do. it's a mindset. maybe I was brainwashed once...like a Jason Bourne type thing. "must stay up late...must stay up late..." and when somebody asks "why?" it throws off my mindset and puts me on the defensive. "well...well...why NOT? hu, Mr. Smart Man? Why NOT?" Jo Bourne. nah. doesn't flow. forget that idea. and besides, being brainwashed to stay up late at night isn't nearly as cool as being brainwashed to kill people. yeah, scrap that idea.
I do love the nighttime, though. I like being awake when everyone else is asleep. it gives me a sense of power. "you have all succumbed to your natural human instincts and fallen into a voluntary coma. me? I've risen above and beyond my basic human needs and am staying awake until I dang well please. mwahaha."
After Nikki goes to her room with one last parting (and useless) jab about my going to bed, she's usually the last one, so I am left alone with myself and the coffee that I am about to make. I steal downstairs and brew me a pot, sipping it slowly while I decide how I'm going to spend my sleepless night. the possibilities are endless. and yet...beginningless. for the life of me...I can't think of anything to do.
So on any given night I'll go upstairs to my bedroom and goof around on my computer, watching funny youtube videos, watching (real) movies on my laptop, reading random stuff I've written, listening to music or any number of things that I could do during the daytime. nothing that I do at one a.m. is ever really anything that I couldn't do at noon on any given day. annoying.
Anyways. eventually, as I DO get tired at three or four, I find my head beginning to tilt backwards, because my eyes are starting to close involuntarily, and to see strait ahead, my head starts to tilt backwards. that's usually when I start to wonder if going to bed wouldn't be such a bad idea after all. usually after the head tilting begins, the next thing to start happening is when I blink, my eyes take longer and longer to open again. it's like...sheer willpower to make them go open again. after this starts happening, I give it another half hour, tops, before I fall victim to my own sleepiness and stagger like a drunk to my bed and collapse.
The next morning I get up, tired, yes, but I never regret when I've done. I don't know why. I know I ought to; after all, I never really did anything important in my all night escapade. I never really accomplished anything. I think the important reason that I stay up late is silence. silence is the best. and when you live in MY house...silence is pretty hard to come by, and when you DO come by it, you better enjoy it cause you never know when you'll come by it again. I guess that's my best reason for staying up late. I can't get silence during the day, so I'll get it at night when everybody has no choice but to be quiet, cause they're all ASLEEP! my own brilliance astounds me.
So I guess I'm done. it's two a.m., not quite as late as usual, but I'm a little bit more tired tonight, so I'm going to go ahead and skip the head tilt and the long blinks and head strait for bed--err--couch. who's idea was it to give me the guest bedroom? *grumble grumble* oh well. at least down here nobody cares how late I stay up.
G'night, all.
So usually what happens before one of these all-nighters (wait...spellcheck says "nighter" isn't a word but "nighters" is. weird. it also says "spellcheck" isn't a word. I smell a rat) is that I'll kind of wander around the house for a little while at around ten o'clock, wondering what to do and mostly waiting for people to go to bed so I can have the house to myself. Nikki's really the only person who notices, and she knows when I do that, that I'm about to pull an all nighter (okay, I'm adding that word to my dictionary. the red spellcheck line is starting to bug me). and I don't know why, but she has problems with me staying up late at night. I think it all goes back to when we lived in rooms side by side in Ceresco and I always stayed up late and got four hours of sleep per night, and she always went to bed early and got eight and we both felt the same in the morning. I'm pretty sure she's still bitter about that.
Anyways, she always tries to talk me out of staying up late, as if it effects her happiness or something if I go to bed when she does. she always tries to get me to, like, turn against myself or something by asking questions like, "Why do you always feel like you have to stay up late?" Answer: "Pfft." or "Why don't you just go to sleep now? you know you're tired." Answer: "Pfft." and sometimes she even tries to pull the "It's not healthy to stay up so late." card. Answer: "Pfft. pfft. pfft." the only people who say staying up late isn't healthy are the people who are angry that they can't stay up late themselves. people like Nikki. poor souls.
After "pffting" Nikki into silence I flounce to my bedroom. I never really answer her questions because...well...I really don't have answers to them. why don't I go to bed? I...don't know. it's not like I have anything especially important to do. it's a mindset. maybe I was brainwashed once...like a Jason Bourne type thing. "must stay up late...must stay up late..." and when somebody asks "why?" it throws off my mindset and puts me on the defensive. "well...well...why NOT? hu, Mr. Smart Man? Why NOT?" Jo Bourne. nah. doesn't flow. forget that idea. and besides, being brainwashed to stay up late at night isn't nearly as cool as being brainwashed to kill people. yeah, scrap that idea.
I do love the nighttime, though. I like being awake when everyone else is asleep. it gives me a sense of power. "you have all succumbed to your natural human instincts and fallen into a voluntary coma. me? I've risen above and beyond my basic human needs and am staying awake until I dang well please. mwahaha."
After Nikki goes to her room with one last parting (and useless) jab about my going to bed, she's usually the last one, so I am left alone with myself and the coffee that I am about to make. I steal downstairs and brew me a pot, sipping it slowly while I decide how I'm going to spend my sleepless night. the possibilities are endless. and yet...beginningless. for the life of me...I can't think of anything to do.
So on any given night I'll go upstairs to my bedroom and goof around on my computer, watching funny youtube videos, watching (real) movies on my laptop, reading random stuff I've written, listening to music or any number of things that I could do during the daytime. nothing that I do at one a.m. is ever really anything that I couldn't do at noon on any given day. annoying.
Anyways. eventually, as I DO get tired at three or four, I find my head beginning to tilt backwards, because my eyes are starting to close involuntarily, and to see strait ahead, my head starts to tilt backwards. that's usually when I start to wonder if going to bed wouldn't be such a bad idea after all. usually after the head tilting begins, the next thing to start happening is when I blink, my eyes take longer and longer to open again. it's like...sheer willpower to make them go open again. after this starts happening, I give it another half hour, tops, before I fall victim to my own sleepiness and stagger like a drunk to my bed and collapse.
The next morning I get up, tired, yes, but I never regret when I've done. I don't know why. I know I ought to; after all, I never really did anything important in my all night escapade. I never really accomplished anything. I think the important reason that I stay up late is silence. silence is the best. and when you live in MY house...silence is pretty hard to come by, and when you DO come by it, you better enjoy it cause you never know when you'll come by it again. I guess that's my best reason for staying up late. I can't get silence during the day, so I'll get it at night when everybody has no choice but to be quiet, cause they're all ASLEEP! my own brilliance astounds me.
So I guess I'm done. it's two a.m., not quite as late as usual, but I'm a little bit more tired tonight, so I'm going to go ahead and skip the head tilt and the long blinks and head strait for bed--err--couch. who's idea was it to give me the guest bedroom? *grumble grumble* oh well. at least down here nobody cares how late I stay up.
G'night, all.
Saturday, May 3, 2008
On A Lighter Note...
Most of the poetry that I post on here is deep and meaningful, but here's a little one for you that...well...isn't. enjoy. :)
I Will Trust Your Blinker
Late for work, I jump in my car
My car starts with a roar
I throw on the shades, put my car into gear
And put the peddle to the floor
I go to turn on another road
But the busy street is packed
And I know it’s going to be hard to turn
And keep my car intact
And then I see you coming my way
All other hope is gone
You’re moving too fast for me to get out
But you’ve got your blinker on
For just a small split second
I panic in indecision
You’ve got your blinker on
But I want to avoid a collision
You’re driving at a frightening speed
At the same speed my mind is thinking
You’re coming at me so terribly fast
But that little light is blinking
Well listen, buster, I’m late for work
I don’t have time for games
And as I watch you speeding close
From behind my tinted frames
I make a quick decision
About that little blinking light
I quickly pull onto the street
Grit my teeth and hang on tight
I look in my rear-view mirror
You’re still coming fast
Then I see you turn off your blinker
Oh blast.
There now! hope you liked it! it made me laugh when I first wrote it. have a great week everybody! oh, by the way, "Away" by Nightwish is a fantastic song. just thought I'd throw that out there cause that's what I'm listening to right now. seriously...it's sweet.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Thunderstorms at two a.m.
I knew it. I could feel it in my bones. just like Papa Bear who could feel a storm in his left big toe (from the Berenstain Bears, for those of you who never had a real childhood). I knew one would come along here soon. and I was right. mwahaha.
So there I was. minding my own little business in my bedroom, doing something, I don't remember what. isn't that always the way it goes? I feel like an old person or something, for all the things I forget. anyways. we're off subject. bring it back.
There I was, doing that thing I don't remember doing at my desk in my bedroom (at least I remember that much). then all of a sudden, I heard a noise. actually, I felt it before I actually heard it. a low rumble. I could feel the vibrations pulsing through everything I touched. I knew it had to come along sooner or later...the first thunderstorm of the year.
So basically, I love rain and especially thunderstorms. and tonight (err...this morning? yikes. it's already 3:30. my bad) at about 2:00 a.m. my dad poked his head into my bedroom (scared the livin' daylights outta me, too) to remind me to close my window so rain water wouldn't come in. now, I'd been hearing the thunder, but not any rain. my father assured me that, yes, it was raining, and please, for crying out loud, try to go to bed before sunup. parents have such funny notions.
So I help my dad check all the windows in the house, and then he climbs the stairs and heads back to bed. me, I didn't have work the next day, so why should I rush? I wait until he's in his bedroom, and then tiptoe to the back door. I peeked outside and saw the rain, pouring strait down like little silver bullets. it was beautiful. I remove my socks and roll up my pant legs. then, quietly (so as to not wake people, of course. that would be rude, right?) I eased the back door open, cringing at every squeak. silently, I slipped outside into the rain. it was warm, perfectly so. the sky was bright with lightning and every time I saw it flash I'd grin stupidly and wait for the thunder that would inevitably follow close behind it.
I kind of just stood there for a while, glancing around every so often to make sure the neighbors weren't outside gawking at the girl next door who sneaks outside to play in the rain at two a.m. Not that I needed to worry; most of the people who live close to me are the mini van couple with two kids and a dog types, who go to bed at nine at night. no fear of them catching me outside at two in the morning. and even if they did, so what. they already know our family is weird.
Anyways. I stood out there and smiled and looked up into the rain until I was quite soaked and I had started to shiver, then went very quietly back inside and stole up to my room. it had been terribly fun, and I never even got caught--ah! I mean, I never even woke anybody.
So now I'm thinking I should probably go to bed. meh. I'm not really all that tired. see, thing is, I get really tired at about one a.m. every night. if I stay strong and tough it out and stay awake past about two, then I usually can't get to sleep again (even if I tried) until about four. ah, well, there's always plenty of stuff to do. and hey, it IS almost four! hoorah. I might just try to hit the sack after all. probably. maybe. maybe not...
'Night all.
Know what's funny? I probably wont even remember writing this tomorrow. ha!
So there I was. minding my own little business in my bedroom, doing something, I don't remember what. isn't that always the way it goes? I feel like an old person or something, for all the things I forget. anyways. we're off subject. bring it back.
There I was, doing that thing I don't remember doing at my desk in my bedroom (at least I remember that much). then all of a sudden, I heard a noise. actually, I felt it before I actually heard it. a low rumble. I could feel the vibrations pulsing through everything I touched. I knew it had to come along sooner or later...the first thunderstorm of the year.
So basically, I love rain and especially thunderstorms. and tonight (err...this morning? yikes. it's already 3:30. my bad) at about 2:00 a.m. my dad poked his head into my bedroom (scared the livin' daylights outta me, too) to remind me to close my window so rain water wouldn't come in. now, I'd been hearing the thunder, but not any rain. my father assured me that, yes, it was raining, and please, for crying out loud, try to go to bed before sunup. parents have such funny notions.
So I help my dad check all the windows in the house, and then he climbs the stairs and heads back to bed. me, I didn't have work the next day, so why should I rush? I wait until he's in his bedroom, and then tiptoe to the back door. I peeked outside and saw the rain, pouring strait down like little silver bullets. it was beautiful. I remove my socks and roll up my pant legs. then, quietly (so as to not wake people, of course. that would be rude, right?) I eased the back door open, cringing at every squeak. silently, I slipped outside into the rain. it was warm, perfectly so. the sky was bright with lightning and every time I saw it flash I'd grin stupidly and wait for the thunder that would inevitably follow close behind it.
I kind of just stood there for a while, glancing around every so often to make sure the neighbors weren't outside gawking at the girl next door who sneaks outside to play in the rain at two a.m. Not that I needed to worry; most of the people who live close to me are the mini van couple with two kids and a dog types, who go to bed at nine at night. no fear of them catching me outside at two in the morning. and even if they did, so what. they already know our family is weird.
Anyways. I stood out there and smiled and looked up into the rain until I was quite soaked and I had started to shiver, then went very quietly back inside and stole up to my room. it had been terribly fun, and I never even got caught--ah! I mean, I never even woke anybody.
So now I'm thinking I should probably go to bed. meh. I'm not really all that tired. see, thing is, I get really tired at about one a.m. every night. if I stay strong and tough it out and stay awake past about two, then I usually can't get to sleep again (even if I tried) until about four. ah, well, there's always plenty of stuff to do. and hey, it IS almost four! hoorah. I might just try to hit the sack after all. probably. maybe. maybe not...
'Night all.
Know what's funny? I probably wont even remember writing this tomorrow. ha!
Friday, April 11, 2008
Fly On, My Love
I see you walking on my earth
Sick, weak, weary, frail
Chasing something just out of reach
Striving to no avail
My dear little children, do not fret
Your Father has not withdrawn
Because I am with you every step
Strive on, my child, strive on
Overcome with love and joy
You lift up your voice to sing
The gift of your songs of sincere praise
Is better than any offering
As praise wells up inside your heart
You lift your voice in song
Because it gives me joy and glory
Sing on, my joy, sing on
Things can happen in this life
That we cannot explain
We don’t always know the reason
For suffering and pain
So I will fold you in my arms
When you feel like hope is gone
Because I am your loving Father
Cry on, my child, cry on
One day after you fight the fight
And fall to Death’s embrace
And when you leave your earthly home
And fly away from that place
When you’re on your way to Me
Flying through the rays of the dawn
Because I can’t wait to welcome you home
Fly on, my love, fly on.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Random
So this post is gonna be really...really...really...random. random, as in, I'm still wondering what it's going to be about. but my fingers keep moving, and words are still forming, so what the heck, let's do this thing.
So I went to work tonight, and lately I've been picking up these little isms that customers generally display. por ejemplo, whenever I want to ask if they found everything, it usually happens like this:
"Did you find--"
"Yes."
And then I keep going, "...everything you were looking for?" and then there's an awkward silence, cause they've already answered, and usually, just to fill the empty space, they end up answering the question again. for a long LONG time I've wanted to do it like this:
"Did you find--"
"Yes."
"--a leprechaun?"
Just to see the look on their face. priceless. maybe I will someday. I bet if I did they'd wait for me to finish the question next time. then again, there probably wouldn't be a next time, cause I'd probably get fired. it would be so worth it.
So, I love winter. I love winter like I love my computer. but, just as with my computer, I am beginning to love it less and less. winter has been here a long long time, and I really really really just want to roll down my window while driving 60 mph and stick my head out the window like a dog and just let the wind whip through my hair. I'm so excited for that! it's the very first thing on the "what to do when Spring gets here" list. it also happens to be 2nd, 3rd, 4th and 5th. 6th, 7th, 8th, and all the way to 100th is to lounge in my newly acquired hammock. :D
I'm also excited for my birthday, which is coming up. curiously, as I've grown older, my enjoyment of Christmas has faded (I think it's because it's not as magical as it was way back in the day when I was a gullible child) but my enjoyment of my birthday is the same as it was when I was a small child. I do love my birthday! :D and this year, I'll be turning 19. it's a bittersweet birthday. this is the last birthday I will have to be a teenager. on my next birthday, I'll be turning 20 years old!! I'll be...I'll be an...an...OLD PERSON!! so I'm determined to enjoy this one with everything I've got in my still-for-a-little-while-young bones. after this birthday, I'll also be able to swipe alcohol at the store. it seems a strange thing to long for, but you have no idea how annoying it is to have to call a manager up every single time somebody wants to purchase alcohol. also, apparently I LOOK old enough, so everybody brings all their alcohol into my lane. curses.
My car is in the shop this week, getting fixed I hope. I hope to get it back on Wednesday, fully repaired and looking good as new. I've even driven by the place where it is to see if I could catch a glimpse of my car, and never did see him. I'd better have him back by the time the weather gets good, though, cause I don't think sticking my head out the window of anybody else's car while I drive would be as magical.
Anyway, this was just sort of an update on my life...or whatever you wanna call it...there was absolutely zero thinking beforehand on this. I'm sorry, all of you. this post wasn't really anything. you may now return to your lives.
So I went to work tonight, and lately I've been picking up these little isms that customers generally display. por ejemplo, whenever I want to ask if they found everything, it usually happens like this:
"Did you find--"
"Yes."
And then I keep going, "...everything you were looking for?" and then there's an awkward silence, cause they've already answered, and usually, just to fill the empty space, they end up answering the question again. for a long LONG time I've wanted to do it like this:
"Did you find--"
"Yes."
"--a leprechaun?"
Just to see the look on their face. priceless. maybe I will someday. I bet if I did they'd wait for me to finish the question next time. then again, there probably wouldn't be a next time, cause I'd probably get fired. it would be so worth it.
So, I love winter. I love winter like I love my computer. but, just as with my computer, I am beginning to love it less and less. winter has been here a long long time, and I really really really just want to roll down my window while driving 60 mph and stick my head out the window like a dog and just let the wind whip through my hair. I'm so excited for that! it's the very first thing on the "what to do when Spring gets here" list. it also happens to be 2nd, 3rd, 4th and 5th. 6th, 7th, 8th, and all the way to 100th is to lounge in my newly acquired hammock. :D
I'm also excited for my birthday, which is coming up. curiously, as I've grown older, my enjoyment of Christmas has faded (I think it's because it's not as magical as it was way back in the day when I was a gullible child) but my enjoyment of my birthday is the same as it was when I was a small child. I do love my birthday! :D and this year, I'll be turning 19. it's a bittersweet birthday. this is the last birthday I will have to be a teenager. on my next birthday, I'll be turning 20 years old!! I'll be...I'll be an...an...OLD PERSON!! so I'm determined to enjoy this one with everything I've got in my still-for-a-little-while-young bones. after this birthday, I'll also be able to swipe alcohol at the store. it seems a strange thing to long for, but you have no idea how annoying it is to have to call a manager up every single time somebody wants to purchase alcohol. also, apparently I LOOK old enough, so everybody brings all their alcohol into my lane. curses.
My car is in the shop this week, getting fixed I hope. I hope to get it back on Wednesday, fully repaired and looking good as new. I've even driven by the place where it is to see if I could catch a glimpse of my car, and never did see him. I'd better have him back by the time the weather gets good, though, cause I don't think sticking my head out the window of anybody else's car while I drive would be as magical.
Anyway, this was just sort of an update on my life...or whatever you wanna call it...there was absolutely zero thinking beforehand on this. I'm sorry, all of you. this post wasn't really anything. you may now return to your lives.
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